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Weight Watchers

So yesterday I bit the bullet and joined weight watchers. I weighed in at 82.1kg and I think my leader must have seen the look in my eyes of humiliation as she kindly says to me "that's the highest weight you'll be here" and it's true. By taking this step while it was hard and hurt my pride a whole lot it was the best thing I could do to stop the downward spiral back to old habits. I had really put a negative box around the program in my mind by telling myself it is disordered to get weighed in each week and weak to need that. That's really not true. When I was sitting in my meeting I realized how much support I have been missing out on and how silly I've been... If I'm really honest it's because I failed at weight watchers and instead of picking myself up and learning I got angry and blamed the program because that's easier than blaming me. Sigh.

At the end of the day the last time I was losing weight successfully was November 2012. So while it feels fresh it really isn't and no wonder my habits have slipped.

So now I'm trucking along and it is a struggle dealing with the hunger that goes with changing from eating like a horse to eating to lose weight but I know my body will adjust after a week or so. Brunch out this morning meant this afternoon was a breakfast for lunch kind of day.

Today

Changes are coming!

Hello

It sure has been a while.

I might come back.

Maybe.. 

I'm not sure if I'm all that great at this blogging thing, but I do remember it motivated me a heck of a lot and helped me get some positive thoughts into a world where people understand what it's like to struggle towards a healthy lifestyle.

I feel like a whole lot has changed in a year, let me give a quick rundown.

• I've been married a year! 
• I still work at the same great company, but my role has changed and there is a bit more responsibility/freedom but lots of hard work. I love it.
• My brother spent 3 months late last year in hospital, which really had a big impact on me. It was very serious so he was at Wellington hospital which is close to me, which meant I spent a lot of time with him. For months my life consisted of work, hospital, sleep, worry. I think that three months was one of the hardest times of my life, many sleepless nights and many many tears. He is ok now, and next Friday we are planning to celebrate his back brace coming off (fingers crossed!). The positives from that time were the closeness it gave us, spending hours together each day in a hospital room will do that. It was also a big test for my marriage and I think we got through it just fine and it made us stronger. It was comforting to have a shoulder to cry on, someone to cook for me, look after me, pick me up late at night from the hospital and also to visit my brother and provide boy time for him as well. 
• I recently ran my first 10k, I did no training and had not run for months, was quite worried about it and finished in 1.05. I was quite pleased!
• We headed to Melbourne for my birthday in January and watched the Australian open tennis finals, it was a great week and wow what an amazing city!

Hmmm.... A quiet year really!

Balance

I gained 5kg after my wedding. I went full crazy and fell back into my old habits of binge eating.

Rather than dusting myself off and getting stuck back into my healthy routine which would have put me back on track I panicked.

I panicked, freaked out, and then tried to change a million things in my life because I had lost faith in my ability to take care of myself. The further I slipped back into bad habits the more I despaired and the more I despaired the more I binged to cover up the stress. A very nasty cycle!!

Basically my head went a bit like this:

• Omg another kilo on!
• Omg, nothing I do will work, I can't stop eating!
• There's something really wrong with me, I'm going to be back to my starting weight within months!
• I'm so stressed, I need to eat!
• Ugh, I feel so disgusting, I need to make a plan. I know, I'll exercise 3 times a day, eat 1400 cals a day and be hard on myself, I'll start tommorrow.
• I've been eating healthy for two days and I still weigh 5kg more than before my 2 months of binge eating, wtf!?
• This isn't working, omg, so fat, must comfort eat.
• I'll hire a personal trainer.
• She says to eat 1900cals per day. Can't do that.
• If I'm going to eat more I'll make it all protein, that's what weight training is about, right?
• Her workouts are too easy, I don't feel like I'm working off these calories,  I feel a bit abandoned by her.
• This high protein diet is boring, don't want the food I packed for lunch, so I'll go buy something.
• Didn't lose a kilo this week, must comfot eat.
• Carb binge ensues...

And so it has gone on and on. I sit down, make a plan, expect to be skinny within days, get disappointed and then have a binge.

This isn't me, I'm not thinking rationally, I'm just in a huge panic. It really does need to stop. I'm playing games with the scales, I won't weigh myself for weeks then I'll weigh daily and get mad if I'm still over 78kg. 

So, two problems I can fix right this minute:

• Set my daily calories to 1600 in myfitnesspal and not get anxious about this, I exercise daily so this is reasonable.
• Email my personal trainer and outline how I feel. I was so excited to start working with her, but so far things aren't working out as I'd hoped.

That last one is a tricky one, but it's my money and I don't feel I'm getting value, even though I think she's fantastic as a person and an athlete.

Three goals I will work on this week:

• Getting back into walking to work and try out doing weights in a lunch break. 
• Finding time to fit in at least two runs, even if they are just 20-25 minutes.
• Eating within my calorie goal each day, taking one day at a time and bearing in mind that one meal in a restaurant that may push me over my calorie limit is not going to make me gain weight. 

I really want to get back on track, my goal is still 68kg and I want to get there! My work midwinter party is in 5 weeks, and I think in that time I can get back under 75kg.

The person I want to be

I want to be that strong, independent businesswoman everyone secretly admires. 
I want to have quiet confidence and grace, to be sharp when I need to, but understanding. 
I want to have a body that says as well as working on my career, I make working on my body a priority.
I want to be that person who always brings a salad, who never gets busy and just grabs lunch from over the road at McDonalds.
I want people to see me in gym gear or at special events and think "Wow".

I may be a complete perfectionist, but I want it all. I don't want to cover up who I am now, that won't work because what you eat in secret you carry in public. I want to CHANGE who I am now.

Just got an email back from a very cool personal trainer who I want to draw me up a programme to get me started on some proper lifting. #Excited!

Some overdue changes

There comes to a point in every weight loss journey where you lose a comfortable amount of weight and then the going gets tough. I have completely come unstuck, I'm back to bad habits and I feel awful. I haven't been for a run since weeks before my wedding and I really feel sluggish and unfit and I hate it! 

I have become really dependent on sugar to make me feel good since I don't have a lot of exercise going on, which worries me. The way I've been eating recently makes me wonder if I have a food addiction.

Anyways. I have decided that for now, I lack the ability to stop at "just one". Be it just one drink, just one lolly or just one sprite zero. My solution to that is to cut it from my life and eat a bit cleaner for the next few weeks. I've also done some thinking about the amount of food I'm using to fuel my body and I think I may need to be a bit more realistic.

Here's some facts:
- I no longer have a wedding deadline looming which means I can take things a bit slower
- I walk to work most days, which burns around 150 calories. I don't count it.
- I aim to eat 1350 calories most days. Sometimes I get quite hungry but fight it.
- Prior to the wedding I was running 20km per week, walking to work, playing netball once a week, playing tennis twice a week and trying to hit the gym a few times as well. All on 1350 calories per day.
- My net calories some days would often be 500. That's 1350 eaten, and 850 burned through exercise alone, without taking into account the calories my body needs just to function!!!

Not eating enough makes your body ask for more. Craving more food can lead to binge eating and making poor choices. 

Eating a more reasonable number of calories = better satisfaction = no cravings and binge eating. Reasonable assumption?

So, as an experiment I have decided to up my calories to 1600 per day. I was initially going to try 1800 but I got a bit scared! The compromise on upping my calories so far is to get a lot more protein into my body and to make sure I am doing some high intensity exercise 6 times per week!

This week's plan:

So, my BMR is: 1572 which I multiply by 1.2 (sedentary) to give my daily calorie needs of 1900cals/day. I subtract 300cals per day to get my my goal of 1,600 calories which gives a weekly deficit of 2,100 calories and I add my weekly burn of 3,000 calories to that which is a total deficit of 5,100 calories which equals a weight loss of 1.4 pounds. 

Whew, got all that???

So, starting point. Will weigh myself tomorrow but here is the lowdown right now:

I'm tired, I have a constant headache, my mouth tastes and feels horrible, I'm dehydrated and my skin feels greasy. My muscles are killing me from netball yesterday and I just feel really out of shape and I'm super irritable.

After 21 days on this plan I hope to:

- Have lost 3kg, feel bright and alert, not be craving unhealthy food, have my skin back to normal and not feel bloated and lethargic. I'd like my fitness levels to be on their way up to a more comfortable level and I'd like not to be so cranky all the time. 

I'm keen to give this a decent shot, so I might post up my daily eats since I have fixed the camera on my phone (yay!). 

The Grumps

So I never made it to the weight watchers meeting. It's like when I'm having a binge the thought of joining weight watchers is the solution to all my problems, it is essentially a free pass to continue eating until the meeting. Then on the morning I intend to go reality hits and I remember the reasons I gave it up, the cost, that calculating points is so much harder than calories, and I think about Dumbo the Elephant and his "magic" feather and realise that's what I'm doing, fooling myself.

Over Easter I literally ate myself sick. I woke up yesterday full of self-loathing and misery. Life got so so crazy before the wedding, I'm really having trouble relaxing and settling back into normal life. I haven't been for a run, I haven't been to the gym, I keep putting things off because I'm scared to start again.

Fear holds us back, it's not a constructive emotion whatsoever. 

This morning I weighed in at 78.1kg. Massive gain. I'm upset and angry, but I've been here before and I can do it again.

I was perfect with my eating all day, and I got home from work really hungry and found that a certain husband of mine had gone to the supermarket at lunchtime despite having food in the fridge to eat and had stocked the house with an easter egg, chocolate muffin, filled roll, chocolate bar, pizza bread, savoury scone and lollies and he had eaten none of it. I was so hungry and on the verge of losing control all over again. I got really angry with him and started crying. Not only was the food in the fridge wasted, but I now have to stare at all that food when I'm struggling with food so so much at the moment.

I took 20 mins or so removed from the situation, made a game plan, went downstairs and cooked a stir fry, ignoring all the food on offer. I'm full now, and while that food is there, it's not calling out to me to have a binge. Thank god I regained some control.

I feel pathetic, I feel sometimes that noone understands what it is like for food to control their lives to this extent. I always knew I would never be cured of this, but I ever expected the BED to come back with such fury. One step at a time I will make small decisions to get back to a healthy weight and a healthy mind.

Phew.

Deja Vu

Remember that time this time last year that my eating was completely out of control and I fell of the train and sprained my ankle quite severely?

Well, 12 months later almost to the day my eating is once again out of control and at netball I sprained the opposite ankle.

I'm taking this as a sign.

Last year despite being injured I decided enough was enough. I signed up to weight watchers and took some ownership of my life, shedding 20kg.

Since before the wedding things in my life have started going awry, and it's really messed me up.
- Husband's nana got really sick a few weeks before our wedding
- We moved house the weekend before our wedding
- The day we started moving house I got a phone call to say my nana passed away
- Nana's funeral was 2 days before our wedding
- Our car died (and won't be coming back) 2 days before our wedding
- Our beautiful Bengal got sick last week and we have spent $650 getting her back to good health
- My father in law is in hospital at the moment

It just feels like there has been this crazy chain of events that just keep hitting us. I keep waiting for life to return to a simpler time just like last year where all I had to stress about was work, exercise and healthy eating. 

I don't want to make excuses, but I started stress eating before the wedding and it became a habit. I feel like I'm back to square one with the only difference being I'm not obese. I'm now overweight, my weight has crept up to 76.4kg... Scary stuff.

On a brighter note, I picked our baby up from the vet hospital tonight and she is in good spirits. The reunion between her and her little brother was so cute to see. So many kitty kisses!

So... what's the plan from here? Because I always have to have a plan!
Tomorrow I'm going to bite the bullet and re-join Weight Watchers. I will commit to 2 months of their plan and then assess how I am going and whether I feel strong enough to switch to calorie counting alone. Their plan always motivates me when I am starting out, because realistically that is the hardest time in the journey.

Exercise - I need to get my ankle healed which may mean putting exercise on hold. I will need to be very careful with the food intake until I'm back into it. I really hope it's a minor sprain although playing a full game of netball after I had done it probably wasn't the best plan.

Wish me luck, tomorrow may be a humbling experience :( I feel like such a phony to come on here after all my success and confess that I have reverted back to binge eating copious amounts of chocolate every day but honesty is the best policy I guess...

Married!

I don't even know where to start, except to say last Saturday was the absolute best day of my life. I thought it would be a great day, a good celebration, but I was in no way prepared for the joy and love that day had in store.

The aisle I had to walk up was very long, the first half was a covered over arch way all green and pretty, the second half was a trek over a green lawn strewn with 5,000 rose petals the boys had lovingly pulled off rose heads that morning (read: they sat watching the cricket in their hotel, drinking beer and pulling apart roses).

When the old Studebaker I was travelling in pulled up and I caught a distant peek at him, my heart stopped beating. It was like that nervous feeling I got when I saw him on our first date, but with eight and a half years of intensity behind it. I've never felt so happy yet terrified in my life.

My mum walked me through the archway and we chatted, I saw him give his best man a "bro-fist" which made me laugh. I could hear Sting's Fields of Gold but I barely registered the words. My mum handed me over to my brothers who escorted me to my groom, who looked so handsome I wanted to kiss him! They shook his hand, found their seats and then the ceremony flew by. We had written our vows in secret and heard them for the first time, he got a bit choked up when he said his vows, and when I heard them I got a bit teary too. His vows were incredible, for a normally quiet guy, he had really put in 110% to make them perfect. 

I looked over at one point and saw the best man fighting tears and glared at him, I knew if he started crying it would be all over!!

We signed the register to U2 All I want is You and shared what I thought was a perfect wedding kiss. We walked out to Queen You're my Best Friend and my little cousins ran behind us throwing left over rose petals on (at) us. 

Picture

Sometimes despite losing over 20kg I feel absolutely hideously huge and ugly. 
On Saturday I was a groomslady in a close friend's wedding, all day I felt fat, bloated and gross as I have been eating quite badly recently.

Then I saw this picture today and it kind of put life in perspective. Yes I've made some poor choices recently, but I have also made good ones. I can get back on track and I have made a good start.

I try to imagine how I would have felt on Saturday back at my old weight and words can't describe how miserable I would have been and how disgusted I would have been to see the photos. I'm so happy I made this change and so determined to make it last.

I'll leave you with that one just because I think it's hilarious. We found an elephant statue and decided to amuse ourselves with it while the bride and groom were off having their picture taken.

The Liebster Award

So this guy nominated me for this Liebster thingee, not too sure what it's all about to be honest but here goes...

1. What are you passionate about?

At the moment I am passionate about my wedding! I have spent a lot of time recently pondering the meaning of true love and marriage and my head is full of mush. In general though I am passionate about good health, although I have lost my way a bit recently. 

2. What motivates you to get things done?

I've always been quite a driven person, but I definitely feel that success motivates success. Once you push through the initial change resistance and taste a little success you will find it is a lot easier to keep on going. 

3. What stops you from achieving your goals?

Life getting in the way! Some things are outside of my control, but for the rest I find that good planning (days in advance) gets around most tricky situations.

4. Batman or Superman (Human physical and mental greatness or Alien god-like powers)?

Batman. I believe in working with what you have, rather than relying on something to change you.

5. Do you have pets?

I have two beautiful cats, one Bengal and one Moggy. Love them to pieces!

6. If you could travel anywhere for relaxation or excitement where and what would it be?

I would LOVE to walk the Inca trail. Boyfriend says that is NOT what he would call a holiday at all so if anyone out there wants to be my inca trail buddy get in touch yo!

7. What is your favourite movie and why?

I'm not a huge movie person... But I love Kill Bill Vol 1 and Vol 2. I think there's something about B that is so mentally tough and strong, I can relate to that even though I'm not an amazing ninja woman. 

8. Would you use a time machine to alter your past? Knowing that any changes made could completely change your life/knowledge/personality now?

Probably not. While things that happened in my past haven't all been wonderful, I have learned from them all and come through it mentally a lot tougher. The things I would like to change are outside of my control anyway, I would love to go back in time and change my brother's genetics at conception so he wouldn't have needed his surgery but that's not possible.

9. What’s your all time favourite band?

Most likely Pink Floyd. Although I do love The Killers and Muse.

10. What makes a good friend?

Someone who knows my flaws and loves me anyway, someone I can talk to without feeling self conscious and someone who I know will be there no matter what. I'm lucky to have people like this in my life.

11. Why do you blog?

Initially to keep my honest and committed and to provide a visual diary of how far I have come. Now I blog when life gets a bit much and I need to get it all out. I would love to be a better blogger but I'm not sure it will ever happen.

It was fun answering these, not sure that I'll pass it along, don't have time to come up with new ones!

Wedding!

I gotta tell you guys, despite my eating habits not being great I am living in some EXCITING times right now!!

In 4 weeks and 6 days I get to marry my bestie!

Wanna know something stressful? In 3 weeks and 6 days we move house! Garrrhgghhh!! Our landlord decided he wanted his house back, we were originally going to wait until after the wedding but the cutest little flat came up and we were offered it and couldn't say no!

So, timeline for the next month and a bit:
9th Feb - I'm in the bridal party for a friend's wedding, very excited to be a part of it!
16th Feb - Travelling to another wedding, then home again very quickly because...
17th Feb - Run day! I ended up downgrading from a half marathon to a 7k race which is disappointing but it will still be my first ever running event so I'm both nervous and excited about it all the same.
23rd Feb - My Hen's night and Boyfriend's stag party! Mine is out of town so I have a big roadie for this one!
2nd March - Move house and hope everything for the wedding is under control
9th March - might get married?

Then we get to enjoy a brief honeymoon and then head back to our own little house, just the two of us (we currently live with a flatmate who we are sadly bidding farewell to).

Oh, and my eating yesterday and today has been spot on. This morning I woke up, ran to the gym and did a weights workout. I did a lot with kettlebells which was new and fun, hopefully not too sore tomorrow.

So...

Treading water is a funny old thing. You put in some effort to stay afloat, and that can be tiring, but it's not enough effort to actually get anywhere. 

Want to tread water a bit in life?
I'll tell you how, because over the past few months I have become something of an expert.

• Make excuses as to why you don't actually need to make progress
• Revert back to old habits because they are comfortable
• Forget what it feels like to be successful

Essentially, if I continue down the path I am on now I am going to wake up one day weighing 96.3kg and it is going to be very humbling. I feel as if I am clinging on to my weight loss for dear life but I am very close to losing my grip on the ledge and falling back into my old life. 

I can't be that person again! 

Last night I abandoned my plans of going to the gym and then having a salad and glass of wine at home and instead got very drunk, had fish and chips in a pub with my colleagues and now have a very, very sore stomach and feel totally fat. That behaviour isn't my life anymore, it's my old life peeking through.

I just feel so lonely in my new life sometimes though. My friends all go off drinking and I go for a run, or to the gym, or just straight home so I don't eat junkfood at the bar. 

I feel like I am the only person in the world who has to work this hard and give up so much to be in the healthy weight range. But there's that "oh poor me" voice again. This is my own doing, if I had stuck to my calorie intake throughout the week I would have had a bit up my sleeve for a glass of wine. If I could do what I used to do and stop at one glass of wine and no potato chips I could enjoy my Friday nights with friends rather than hiding myself away.

Once again I am finding myself at a point where I need to evaluate my decisions and actions and address the habits that aren't healthy. It's hard to do! But being obese is harder.

I want to get to 65kg, it's my ultimate goal and I need to finish this strong.

Want to stop treading water with me? Take stock of your life and pinpoint the habits that really aren't helping and figure out how you can modify them. Also, if you happen to live in Wellington, NZ and your idea of a good Friday night involves a gym session and a salad please, please be my bestie.

Lost

I'm lost.

Lost in my old habits, lost in how uncomfortable they make me, lost in the disgust of seeing 75kg on the scales again, lost in the fear that I'll never get this under control.

Yikes.

I'm trying to remember what got me started all that time ago back at Easter and kept me on track, and all I can remember is I wrote a blog post saying I have no idea, that success motivates success and you just have to put one foot in front of the other until you make it.

So that I shall.

Ignore the time of the year, ignore the madness going on around you, ignore the negative influences in your life, ignore having bronchitis and ignore the stress. Your emotional state should have no impact on what goes in your mouth.

The first day is the hardest. I'll check in again with progress. I promise.

Sad panda.

AWOL

I have been totally AWOL and I'm sorry!

• Update on paleo - good idea for some, but not for me. My IBS didn't like it too much and tended to get worse, my running performance deteriorated and overall it just wasn't for me. I believe life is too short to cut out entire food groups.
• Update on weight loss - I have not been doing well. I have gained a bit (my lowest is 72.3kg so far) and I am currently hovering around 74kg. Not too happy with this as Christmas is coming and my wedding dress is due to arrive in the next week or two and I need to get down to a weight I will be happy to maintain until March so I can get my dress altered.
• Update on life - stress! Work seems to be ignoring the whole holiday season and is busier than ever, my brother is in hospital and arrrggghh weddings are expensive!
• Update on running - the one part of my life under control. I ran 10km on Saturday! Amazing. I absolutely love it and can't wait to complete the half marathon, just two months to go!
• Update on tennis - I also love it, I want to practice a whole lot and get good enough to play some proper games... But really the only reason I play is to wear a cute skort!

Paleo Tip #1

This recipe is delicious converted to Paleo. Swap the flour for almond meal and skip the sweet chilli sauce if you are super strict. 

Nom!

I must say Peleo is the cheif killer of bloat. Yesterday morning I weighed in at 74.9kg massively bloated from a weekend of binging and booze (my first real off-track week since Easter - not proud). This morning? 73.3kg. Whoaaa.

Today I cheated and had a small scoop of gelato (no cone) at work... I was mega hungry which I think led to the gelato incident. I need to swap my dessert for an extra sack in the day. I'm never hungry after tea, but always ravenous after a no-carb lunch.

Recipe: Paleo Pork Larb

Serves 2.
Ingredients:

• Iceberg lettuce
• Red chilli, finely diced (as much as you like)
• 1 courgette, grated
• eggplant, finely diced (optional)
• brown onion, finely diced
• 300g pork mince
• juice of 1 lime
• ginger, finely diced
• dash of fish sauce
• fresh coriander leaves
• 12 almonds, roughly chopped
• capsicum and cucumber, cut into strips
• 2 tsp coconut oil

Method:

Prepare all ingredients to be cooked (everything except the lettuce, capsicum, cucumber and coriander)

Heat the oil in a pan, brown the mince slightly and add the chilli, courgette, eggplant, onion and ginger. Fry until all ingredients are cooked through (5-10mins). Add a dash of fish sauce and the lime juice (go easy on the fish sauce - that stuff is strong).

Cook for a further minute or two until the sauces have absorbed. Add the almonds and coriander and take off the heat.

Arrange the iceberg lettuce into cup shapes (imagine they are lettuce tacos!) and distribute the pork mixture among the lettuce leaves, add the capsicum and cucumber to complete the "tacos", roll up and eat, no cutlery needed!

Tasted amazing!

Day one of paleo done.

Highlights?

• I had loads of energy at the gym tonight despite being hungry, I ran 5km on the treadmill and then lifted all the things.
• I really enjoyed frozen blueberries microwaved with 1 1/2 TBSP of shredded coconut, the juice was absorbed by the coconut and it was yummers.
• I swapped the milk in my coffee with coconut milk (full fat) and it was actually pretty good.
• Logged my calories, came in around 1,400. Good stuff.

Low points?

• I was hungry at 4pm, like super hungry. Then I remembered fruit is a good option and a small banana took my hungry away.

Paleo?

Paleo is something I've considered for a long time. While I don't really believe in the "eat like a caveman" premise for good health (I have always felt grains are vital for health) but I really want to get my IBS under control and I think Paleo is going to be a good starting point to see what's really going on and it never hurts to be a little open-minded, right?

I'm a little nervous about the following:

• high fat content of what I'm eating
• getting carb deprived and crazy
• my body going keto and my breath becoming like death (although this shouldn't happen if I make sure to eat nuts, pumpkin and kumara I hope??)
• putting on weight
• the impact it might have on running

Things I'm curious about:

• Will it help my recently developed allergies which are driving me crazy?
• Will it mean my life isn't ruled by whether I have an upset stomach?

Tomorrow's food diary:

(I don't include vegetables which are neglible in calories because I'm lazy and because I never have and I've always lost weight regardless).

Menu:
Breakfast - Asparagus with poached egg and fried tomato, half a cup of frozen blueberries with shredded coconut.

MT - black coffee with a dash of coconut milk

Lunch - chicken salad with lettuce, tomato, cucumber, pumpkin, avocado, pumpkin seeds and an olive oil dressing 

Afternoon tea: Apple

Dinner: Pork mince cooked with ginger, chilli and spices served in lettuce leaf cups with chopped almonds and avocado. 

Dessert: Mixed nuts.

Announcements

So it's been a while since I've been in the mood to blog, my blogging motivation comes and goes, at the moment I'm not so fussed. But here's the highlights of my life recently

1. My health - I had a bit of a scare last week when I went to get something I thought was fairly routine checked out and got sent to see a surgeon. I got put on the waiting list to get another opinion and was given some extremely nasty antibiotics as a precaution. They were horrific, I spent 7 days very unwell and am just beginning to feel better now. My exercise was average during that time and so was my eating, I maintained my weight.
2. My weight - I made the healthy weight range!!!! WHOOAAA!!!!!! From obese to normal weight, I currently hover around the 73.6kg mark, and I've maintained there for a few weeks while I tried to figure out whether to stop or keep going. Tentatively I will keep going until I hit the 60s, but below 68kg isn't looking likely, I like my boobs too much and I'm happy they are still a solid D cup (TMI - I'm sorry).
3. Running - I signed up for my first ever half marathon!!!! WHOOOAAA AGAIN PEOPLE!!!!! I have been running quite a bit, in fact tonight after work rather than heading off for drinks I ran up a ridiculous hill to the Observatory and back (around 6km) before catching a bus home. I really love distance runs, this weekend I'm aiming for a 9k training run. Booyaaahhh.
4. Food - I have been experimenting with maintenance over the past few weeks and it has been surprisingly easy. My metabolism seems to be through the roof with all the running, tennis and walking I do so it seems I can get away with quite a lot. Example - We headed home to New Plymouth for labour weekend and I had mucho birthday cake and wine (it was boyfriend's birthday, happy birthday to my favourite!) and a fair bit of hangover food plus more cake, result? Maintained my weight that week. Granted, I did run twice in the three days we were there but still... So yeah, I kinda took a few weeks off tracking everything religiously and stressing about the scales and it's been really nice, last night we celebrated BF finishing his first ever Uni paper by having pizza and beer. I should point out though that my new lifestyle still looks significantly different from my old one even when I am indulging.

• Old pizza and beer night: Eat half a delivered pizza plus chips plus dessert and drink at least three beers, eat until stuffed and feel terrible the next day.
• New pizza and beer night: Share a few glasses of a craft beer we enjoy and eat small woodfired pizzas from our local italian place. Stop when satisfied, wake up feeling fine but a little thirsty.

Ok now I'm started I feel like there's a MILLION things I want to say, I shall try not to leave it so long next time!